Rough Draft lyrics

I crave my own misery
I'm the reincarnation of marquis
I create a list of easy tasks
Because i just love to check shit off
To bring myself closer to the edge
And i won't take another step
To risk the benefits of my sympathetic friends
Everyone i fall in love with
Has already fallen in love with someone i respect
So now i'm an altruist
Oh fuck just this once can i root for the hometeam
I'm always the bee to kamikaze to save the precious queen
And i watch the sympathy turn to pity
From my sympathetic friends

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What do you think is the meaning of Rough Draft by Lemuria (Punk)?