Subconscious lyrics

On one hand I'm walking
the way that I do
looking like I'm lost in thought
but I'm looking for you

it's so subconscious
the way that I feel
too bad my subconscious life
is the more real

and I ain't in the best shape
that I've ever been in
but I know where I'm going
and it ain't where I've been
I know where I'm going
and it ain't where I've been

some kind of anxiety
has gotten hold of my heart
and I just want to run home
when I feel it start

plastic bottles of water
sealed windows, forced air
and gazillions of cell phones
beaming through my (h)air

and I ain't in the best shape
that I've ever been in
but I know where I'm going
and it ain't where I've been
I know where I'm going
and it ain't where I've been

I'm tossing and turning
between sleepless dreams
and I'm poised on the edge of
what it all means

so I turn my back
and I spread my arms wide
and I let myself fall in
way deep inside

and I ain't in the best shape
that I've ever been in
but I know where I'm going
and it ain't where I've been
I know where I'm going
and it ain't where I've been

(Thanks to Renato for these lyrics)

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